This morning I woke up from a pretty awful dream where both Leland and I completely forgot about our family trip and we didn’t pack a single thing. We were arguing about whether to go for the trip empty-handed, fly there and buy everything or rush back home to pack the basics. And we still gotta settle Casper!
I was practically panicking until I eventually had enough and snapped myself out of the dream and woke up.
Definitely not a good dream for me.
So while I laid in bed waiting for Caleb to wake up, it suddenly hit me that I still have this blog! Hence, this ‘checking-in’ post to make it less dead.
I’ve been a full-time stay-at-home-mum for the past 5 months and I’m loving every moment of it despite some minor pull-hair episodes. Monkey babies are monkey babies. Caleb does make me wanna scream and abandon him in the living room while I bawl my eyes out in the bathroom once in a while. I’m lucky I managed to maintain my sanity. Thankfully no PND.
Being a SAHM taught me to take things easy, chill and anticipate the shit coming my way. He’s bound to poo at least once (if lucky) to three times a day (active bowel movements period). He has his tempers and naughty moments. He has his demands and preferences when doing something.
I get jealous when he understands and carries out “hug and kiss Daddy” more enthusiastically than “kiss Mummy”. But at least I know for sure Caleb can chill with Daddy without much fuss when Mummy is busy or sick.
Caleb has been interacting a lot lately. Imitating, mostly, rather. But I’m pretty amazed he understands many words and sentences now. His most spoken words are ball, da-da and ma-ma. His favourite animals are panda and cat (for God knows what reasons). He loves disturbing Casper. By disturb, I mean patting him without proper control of his strength so it ends up like he’s abusing Casper at times. Casper is pretty chill with his younger brother around but gets annoyed whenever Caleb pats him or tries to sit on him. I get annoyed too when Caleb attempts to climb onto me like a carousel horse. I love it when he hugs me for no reason and lies on my chest like he’s seeking comfort. Thank you for giving me comfort too, baby.
Overall, this SAHM journey has been pleasant although I do wish Leland can be a tad more hands on. It’s getting better. Not perfect, but better. I’m thankful for his contribution too. It’s tiring but satisfying and I don’t regret making this big decision to witness my son growing up and hitting his milestones. I’m blessed, truly, for having the ability to take this journey. It might or might not be a temporary one, depending on situations in the near future. I do miss getting a bigger income, not allowance. I do miss having the capability of shopping senselessly. But I won’t exchange any of these for the time spent with Caleb.
The monkey is up and climbing around so it’s about time to end this update but not without a photo of Caleb for attention.
Til my next post!