What just happened? 2012 went with the breeze and 2013 hit without any warning. All of us survived dooms day. Congratulations. So that’s a pretty good thing if you were actually expecting the world to end on 21st December last year.
Ok so yup, I scrolled the main page of my blog, and realised a harsh fact. I haven’t been blogging. At this rate, I don’t even get an average of 1 post per month. *shakes head* Lazy bones, you have completely taken over me.
So here’s a really short summary of 2012. I have had a boring year.
Signed the most number of documents in my life. Biggest commitment. CPF got wiped out. *looks at empty CPF account*
Became auntie too many times.
Travelled 3 times. Myanmar, Bangkok and Perth.
Had a first-time experience in losing my luggage. Which eventually was delivered right at my door step.
Attended too many weddings.
Attended too many funerals.
Celebrated the boyfriend’s 28th birthday at RWS.
Attended my first dog party.
Attended Happy Ever Laughter and Crazy Christmas, Cesar Millan, Wicked, Titanic Exhibition and Harry Potter Museum. *looks at empty wallet*
I was trying so hard to sieve through my blog and Facebook for traces of happenings in 2012. Sadly, I was too lazy to upload all that has happened. And I’m too lazy to look through the photo album to know what else I did.
There were so many things that happened that wasn’t recorded down in photo memory. It took me quite a while to decide to briefly talk about it.
He was diagnosed with cancer. When my mum first told me, it kinda hit me hard. But that only lasted 15 minutes. Despite the awful history and nightmares we had because of him, and currently still going through, we fell into many moments of “no choice” because of the blood that flows within us. Unfortunately, that’s just the only thing that links us to him.
I have cried. Too many times. Not because of his condition, but because when all of us thought my mum could actually finally enjoy life now that we have both grown up, this awful news has to hit her and she cannot break free.
His irresponsibility for his own life has caused us much distraught, to which most of it is weighing down on my mum. The burden she has to bear is way beyond words and our comprehension. But as strong as she is, we have never seen her drop a single tear, which I am extremely amazed at. On the other hand, I’m probably the one who shed the most tears over this issue, because of the helplessness I face and the inability to help carry some burden from my mum.
The chemotherapy and radiotherapy sessions have caused much changes, of which mostly were impacted on us. It has made things at home worse than ever and mum is getting more tired each day.
We prayed. We prayed for all these to end soon. Infidelity, betrayal, lies and now a sickness that requires a hefty sum. I don’t know how much more she can hold on. Please let it end humanely and not cause more pain and hurt to anyone else. Sometimes, we wished that death was the only solution to put a stop for all these.
No one, including our loved ones, will understand the frustrations and struggles we go through but we are most definitely grateful for their words of encouragement.
2012 has ended in an awful way, with the story not even half written and pages left blank. 2013 might be a tougher year. And I really am not anticipating any of it.